Aimseed@Gaia

Why do i always crave you the most when I can’t fucking have you? 
I want you so bad and knowing you are ‘out of bounds’ just makes me want you so much more. The amount of times i go to leave here and just come and see you, the amount of ‘impulse’ moments ive had. Spontanious moments really.

All i want is kisses and cuddles right now.
and because i cant have them im in the cuntist of moods. all i want is to feel your hands in mine, to feel you breathing on my lips, to be able to turn around and you be there, when im sad to be able to cuddle you. i want to be able to walk down the street holding someones hand, holding your hand, you dont understand how hard it is for me to look at you, and just want to reach into my computer screen and pull you close to me. when i hear your voice i want to cling to it forever.

i dont know if im being selfish or not, but its something i want, i need it too, but i do want. tbh even if it was just to have you in a room but to be sitting 6 foot apart, seeing you there, your presence would just make me feel amazing. you dont understand what you do to me, you could light up a whole room.

i listen to any music now and it reminds me of you, and alot of the time i burst into tears. my emotions for you are so strong, and so deep you dont even understand, like the overwhelming feeling of love i get makes me want to just sit and cry, but not in a bad way, its just my body doesnt know how else to react, and because i have never been in love before im not sure how to take it all. im not sure how to take all this love i want to give you. the fact i would reach into my throat and give you my heart if you asked for it.

my obsession with love gets stronger everyday, because i fall in love with you more everyday and no matter what ill always be in love with you until the day i die. and if we arent together, ill die a lonely old lady obsessed with love still and thinking of her ‘prince charming’

i am in love with you. end of.